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dear diary,
i'm pretty sicked of this world now
everything is money, money and just money.
I know that one will die without money
but is your entire life only revolve around money?
People blame of my sudden temper as stress
more like tired of everything
tired of making choice
when there isn't a choice in the first place
people just love giving me to choose one from two
when i can't choose
i'm also pretty sicked of people whining to me how lousy their life is
how lousy could it be?
People complain to me that they dont want go cca
do you think i as a president likes to go cca that much?
Think, if i also complain along, who is going for cca then?
How much worse can it be when i have to choose to give up on either my academic or cca?
You tell me how to choose?
People complain to me regarding friends.
I'm counting the number of times that my friends had disappointed.
They love suspending me in the midair.
People love to give me the cold feet when i already looked forward to it days ago.
Imagine you have to a lonely lunch one day cos you can't find anyone to accompany you.
What are friends, like seriously?
Now, i'm starting to doubt it myself.
i hate it when people say i have alot of friends?
Oh really?
When i'm in trouble, how many of them will be there?
I just wanna a break.
I don't want any drama o rama anymore.
I'm just a seventeen going to eighteen boy.
No, some super hero.
You cant expect me to a overachiever?
I can't be the best cca president, best friend that one will have, best son that helps you settle everything when you're asleep.
I havent have my enough sleep for three days already.
So before anyone bitch in front of me, i think i should be the one talking
having a serious heartache now.
My heart is damn pain now.
Goodnight. Sometimes, i wish i will never wake up. I'm just not that strong to live up to every single one's expectations.