dear diary,
this will be my last 2011 post, and this is the 780 post for my blog!:)
HAPPY KIDDO!
okay, as usual, i will make a wish list for the new year!
so here i go!:)
WISH LIST:
1. receive a surprise for my 18th birthday (18th FOREVER)
2. BAI YUN GANG 2012 TO BE A SUCCESS! (REALLY CROSS MY FINGER! my 9th year in drama)
3. buy a green, brown and black shoe!:) (hahahah, shoe-maniac on the lose)
4. buy LEONA LEWIS's new GLASSHEART ALBUM! (L.L FTW)
5. have a great time in PROM (hope i can buy an unique suit, not the normal gray or white or black suit)
6. receive a bouquet of lovely flowers (i think i will squeal in delight)
7. attend a flashmob (i hope is some dancing or singing one, not like the retarded motionless one)
8. ALL MY FRIENDS AND PEOPLE THAT I KNOW CAN DONT NEED U-TURN AND TAKE As!:)
9. a levels to score well (OF COURSE)
10. NAFPA to score super well (I DON'T WANT TO GO ARMY 3 MONTHS EARLIER, i want my holidays)
11. CUT MOHAWK!:) (i always want to, just no courage to do so)
12. STAY OUT AT NIGHT TILL 12 MIDNIGHT!:) (difficult ba)
13. will not lose any of my current friends (i love them till the day i die)
14. buy suspenders (i really strong feeling that suspenders will be coming back to fashion)
15. change specs, but not because of the increase eye sight
16. visit USS! (until now, i dont dare to spend so much on entertainment)
17. PARENTS' HEALTH TO BE PERFECT!
18. buy green and red shorts (HAHAHA, JUST WANNA BE DARING FOR ANOTHER YEAR)
19. pierce my ear (IMPOSSIBLE)
20. buy the awesome white shoes with anthony (HAHAHHA, I REALLY HOPE)
21. have a great time during CLASS CHALET! (first time whole class outing sia)
22. keep in touch with JC friends after graduation
23. in the PINK OF HEALTH for most of the year!
24. 2012 NOT BE THE END OF WORLD! (i still got 2 milion things havent do, especially i haven't marry yet)
25. make someone happy everyday (yes, is important to BE HAPPY! CHEERS!)
26. give someone an awesome birthday present
27. watch the complete NOOSE season 5 (i love LULU and BABARELLA)
28. FACEBOOK 4000th PHOTOS (A FEW HUNDREDS LEFT)
29. my 333th tweet will be wishing myself HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:)
HAPPY NEW YEAR KIDS!:) me love my 3Fs. (family, friends and future wife)
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
i'm afraid to fall
dear diary,
this is the first time that i'm not thankful to live another day for this year
yes, i love this december holiday
it is peaceful and quiet, no drama o rama
no inter-personal relationship problems
but the feeling that "im not really needed" came rushing back last night
just feel very sad
i stopped typing, to wonder how many of my friends will cry and miss me when i die.
then i realised that i'm shallow
i seems to have a thousand friends but how many of them are really close friends
i treat many of my friends like i'll die without them
but it seems that none of them treat me back the same
sometimes, i just need people to call me "darling, dear, my love" instead of "buddy, awesome"
so, i think that "i'm not really needed" part is true
yes, i die everyday waiting for my friends to love me like they would die without me
maybe the day may not happen
okay, you can't blame me
since last year, i realised that things never go the way i visualised or imagined
so sometimes, i also gave up on my imagination
there are times that i feel very insecure
yes, this should be the period.
dearest diary, am i that insignificant?
so am i only needed to teach people math and listen to people's complaints?
is that it
what about after education part? where i have to stop teaching people math and haveto stop listening to people's complaints
will my time be up?
i realised that no one is going to help me cos people never will.
okay, people just gonna treat this whole thing as a joke and laugh
dear diary, merry christmas to you!
you are really one of my best friends since 2008.
i love you.
this is the first time that i'm not thankful to live another day for this year
yes, i love this december holiday
it is peaceful and quiet, no drama o rama
no inter-personal relationship problems
but the feeling that "im not really needed" came rushing back last night
just feel very sad
i stopped typing, to wonder how many of my friends will cry and miss me when i die.
then i realised that i'm shallow
i seems to have a thousand friends but how many of them are really close friends
i treat many of my friends like i'll die without them
but it seems that none of them treat me back the same
sometimes, i just need people to call me "darling, dear, my love" instead of "buddy, awesome"
so, i think that "i'm not really needed" part is true
yes, i die everyday waiting for my friends to love me like they would die without me
maybe the day may not happen
okay, you can't blame me
since last year, i realised that things never go the way i visualised or imagined
so sometimes, i also gave up on my imagination
there are times that i feel very insecure
yes, this should be the period.
dearest diary, am i that insignificant?
so am i only needed to teach people math and listen to people's complaints?
is that it
what about after education part? where i have to stop teaching people math and haveto stop listening to people's complaints
will my time be up?
i realised that no one is going to help me cos people never will.
okay, people just gonna treat this whole thing as a joke and laugh
dear diary, merry christmas to you!
you are really one of my best friends since 2008.
i love you.
im in a foul mood now
dear diary,
i'm in a foul mood now
seriously, thinking back
i just want this FUCKING YEAR END ASAP
it's a bitter year, super bitter
many inter-personal relationship
too many changes
as usual, i think people treat me like shit
好马被人骑，好人被人欺
i miss my secondary school friends although nobody call me out
but i perfectly fine with it to a certain extent
however, i miss all of my friends dearly
i swear that after a levels, im going to pick up where i left
Thursday, December 22, 2011
when we are 27 or 87...
i'm 17 and i have the rest of my life ahead of me. and when we are 27 or 87, i will just want to look back at the remaining couple of months and talk about how it was the best time of our lives
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
close
dear diary,
i realised im always very fast to treat people like best friend forever
though i never believe in forever
in the end, im the one who got hurt to the max.
thanks, life.
i realised im always very fast to treat people like best friend forever
though i never believe in forever
in the end, im the one who got hurt to the max.
thanks, life.
Monday, December 12, 2011
check against the list again
as usual, this year is coming to an end
omgosh, we are aging so fast
1. buy a yellow shirt(it is just an impulse)
okay, i did! it really happened somewhere near the start of the year. though it is abit big but i like the brightness!:)
2. read finish all kelley's books (they are damm good, i love it cos it touches on magical creatures)
hahahah, i didnt. in the end, i gave up. reading the sword of truth series. damn good!:) i love my seeker and the confessor! <3
3. start saving money (i want to save 250 dollars this year:D)
YES, I THINK I GOT SAVE THIS MUCH!
4. plant my flowers seeds and witness them bloom (haha, i havent started planting it as im lack of soil)
hahahaha, this is a funny wish. I DIDNT MAKE IT. (SHAKE HEAD)
5. go for syf this year (i dont know what will be my cca for this year)
yes, i did went for syf. got silver -.- was rather disappointed. AIYO, IS THIS THE JIAYI'S SYF CURSE!
6. go back to zhonghua to help out (regardless whether it is cca or council)
yes, plentiful! i think
7. score well for o levels (who doesnt want to?)
YES, I DID SCORE WELL. I DIDNT MUCH HOPE FOR 6 POINTS. in the end, i got my perfect 11. such a nice score, never regretted much
8. dance till i go crazy
everynight!:)
9. go out till 12 am midnight (sounds impossible, but impossible is possible)
soon will accomplish this. i hope i can stay overnight for class chalet but that will be next year
10. write a story, send it to the newspaper company for it to be published (HAHA. SO COOL RIGHT! by:jiayi(M))
hahaha, but didnt. but i am currently writing for next year BYG!
11. dont cry for a year (another impossible thing!)
didnt cry MUCH, but i cry for alot of stupid things like during xingqin's birthday!:)
12. buy another pair of shoes (ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, IM A SHOEHOLIC)
instead of one pair, i bought 5 i think!:)
13. catch another NC16 movie (recent one is THE LITTLE FOCKERS, DAMM FUNNY BUT SO NO PLOT)
YES, THE BEST NC16 MOVIE IS APPLE OF MY EYE!:) I REALLY CAN FORGO ALL THE REST BUT I CANNOT MISS THIS AWESOME SHOW!:)
14. dont insult people (i broke it today!D:)
hahah, for the greater benefit of others!
15. picnic (under the warm evening sun light)
yes, along with the NY people. it was indeed a lovely day
16. dont age (REMEMBER IM THE FOREVER YOUNG!)
huh!? im 17!? not diff!
17. go for THEATRESPORTS DRAMA CAMP :D)))))) (hope i got time for it)
sad, i didnt make it cos going swiss!:( next year, after my As!
18. hope that leona lewis will have a new album
nope! mega sad:(
19. wish that this year has more drama rama (NOT TO MY LIFE, TO OTHERS, SO I CAN GOSSIP ON IT)
it was a very drama year!:) there isnt a year without drama for me to forget.
20. hope that people can forgive me easily (dont need to cry or argue over dumb things)
IMPOSSIBLE. -.-
21. hope that people sometimes can heed my advices (hmm... still NO ONE LISTEN TO ME, THOUGH MOST OF THE TIME, IM CORRECT!)
ya la, for maths only!
22. wish that friendships will not turn sour (seems tough but still have to try)
hahaha, broken it. long story dear!
23. my photos on facebook will hit 2000 (OMG!!!!! CAMWHORE QUEEN! QUEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!)
YES! I F*CKING DID IT! AIMING 3000 NEXT YEAR!:)
24. go partying till i turn crazy (HAHA, THE REBELLIOUS SIDE OF ME STILL EXSISTS!)
most days!:)
25. find love
everyday, im surrounded by my love ones
26. BE HAPPY ALWAYS (MOST IMPORTANT!)
DIDNT ALWAYS, MOSTLY YES!
omgosh, we are aging so fast
1. buy a yellow shirt(it is just an impulse)
okay, i did! it really happened somewhere near the start of the year. though it is abit big but i like the brightness!:)
2. read finish all kelley's books (they are damm good, i love it cos it touches on magical creatures)
hahahah, i didnt. in the end, i gave up. reading the sword of truth series. damn good!:) i love my seeker and the confessor! <3
3. start saving money (i want to save 250 dollars this year:D)
YES, I THINK I GOT SAVE THIS MUCH!
4. plant my flowers seeds and witness them bloom (haha, i havent started planting it as im lack of soil)
hahahaha, this is a funny wish. I DIDNT MAKE IT. (SHAKE HEAD)
5. go for syf this year (i dont know what will be my cca for this year)
yes, i did went for syf. got silver -.- was rather disappointed. AIYO, IS THIS THE JIAYI'S SYF CURSE!
6. go back to zhonghua to help out (regardless whether it is cca or council)
yes, plentiful! i think
7. score well for o levels (who doesnt want to?)
YES, I DID SCORE WELL. I DIDNT MUCH HOPE FOR 6 POINTS. in the end, i got my perfect 11. such a nice score, never regretted much
8. dance till i go crazy
everynight!:)
9. go out till 12 am midnight (sounds impossible, but impossible is possible)
soon will accomplish this. i hope i can stay overnight for class chalet but that will be next year
10. write a story, send it to the newspaper company for it to be published (HAHA. SO COOL RIGHT! by:jiayi(M))
hahaha, but didnt. but i am currently writing for next year BYG!
11. dont cry for a year (another impossible thing!)
didnt cry MUCH, but i cry for alot of stupid things like during xingqin's birthday!:)
12. buy another pair of shoes (ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, IM A SHOEHOLIC)
instead of one pair, i bought 5 i think!:)
13. catch another NC16 movie (recent one is THE LITTLE FOCKERS, DAMM FUNNY BUT SO NO PLOT)
YES, THE BEST NC16 MOVIE IS APPLE OF MY EYE!:) I REALLY CAN FORGO ALL THE REST BUT I CANNOT MISS THIS AWESOME SHOW!:)
14. dont insult people (i broke it today!D:)
hahah, for the greater benefit of others!
15. picnic (under the warm evening sun light)
yes, along with the NY people. it was indeed a lovely day
16. dont age (REMEMBER IM THE FOREVER YOUNG!)
huh!? im 17!? not diff!
17. go for THEATRESPORTS DRAMA CAMP :D)))))) (hope i got time for it)
sad, i didnt make it cos going swiss!:( next year, after my As!
18. hope that leona lewis will have a new album
nope! mega sad:(
19. wish that this year has more drama rama (NOT TO MY LIFE, TO OTHERS, SO I CAN GOSSIP ON IT)
it was a very drama year!:) there isnt a year without drama for me to forget.
20. hope that people can forgive me easily (dont need to cry or argue over dumb things)
IMPOSSIBLE. -.-
21. hope that people sometimes can heed my advices (hmm... still NO ONE LISTEN TO ME, THOUGH MOST OF THE TIME, IM CORRECT!)
ya la, for maths only!
22. wish that friendships will not turn sour (seems tough but still have to try)
hahaha, broken it. long story dear!
23. my photos on facebook will hit 2000 (OMG!!!!! CAMWHORE QUEEN! QUEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!)
YES! I F*CKING DID IT! AIMING 3000 NEXT YEAR!:)
24. go partying till i turn crazy (HAHA, THE REBELLIOUS SIDE OF ME STILL EXSISTS!)
most days!:)
25. find love
everyday, im surrounded by my love ones
26. BE HAPPY ALWAYS (MOST IMPORTANT!)
DIDNT ALWAYS, MOSTLY YES!
Monday, December 5, 2011
filthy rich
if im rich
there are so many things that i wanna do
but one thing i die die have to do is
to grab my passport, randomly pour things into a luggage and fly to new york!:)
there are so many things that i wanna do
but one thing i die die have to do is
to grab my passport, randomly pour things into a luggage and fly to new york!:)
Friday, December 2, 2011
jerk
dear diary,
the feeling is bad
those negative thoughts are swarming back
i never stop thinking of the letter
the content of the letter
im really am an ass at times
why can't i just switch my feelings off?
the feeling is bad
those negative thoughts are swarming back
i never stop thinking of the letter
the content of the letter
im really am an ass at times
why can't i just switch my feelings off?
Thursday, December 1, 2011
lets review
dear diary,
i must admit that since sec 3, i know that my every holiday must be fantabulous!:)
this year will be an unique one
instead of the original schedule to fly to overseas
i took the challenge to fly to another dimension
i love this current holiday
nothing big or special to take care of
just be myself and myself
dont need to care about any inter-personal relationship
O.M.L.I!:)
today i did two stupid things
first, i have a strong craving for ruffles
seriously, my favourite potato chips is ruffles
they are always so crispy
and they are jagged looking
and they are salty!:)
anyway, it was drizzling outside
and there is no umbrella at home
so i put on my CERN dark blue sweater and i walked to rivervale plaza just to buy a packet of my love!:)
hahaha, it was an act of impulse but i dont regret it
sometimes, we have to do things out of our normal routine
oh boy, you know how much walking in rain without a brolly
the acid in the rainwater will corrode your skin cells
secondly, i board the train from sengkang to toa payoh to borrow the fifth book of my SWORD OF TRUTH series.
there, i met an old housing agent who was using the library comp to print some notes
seriously, i dont know how to print things in public place
even in NYJC, I HAD TO ASK PEOPLE TO HELP ME!
in the end, i spent thirty minutes to help her and the thing cant be opened
hmm... NO COMMENTS
then i dashed to the third level which is the teenager section
my eyes scanned for "GOO" since the author's name is terry GOOdkind
in the end, it wasnt there!
WTS!
I WAS DISAPPOINTED
i searched for the book in the entire library
it wasnt in the library
i checked the catalogue using the library's comp and it said it was currently not on loan
i swear it was either the girls or the boy that "stole" it from me
feeling really disappointed and i swore that i will lay my hands on the book
i board the mrt and rushed to Yishun
and i almost run to the library
my heart was pounding real fast and i was praying that the last "faith of the fallen" book in singapore wont be borrowed by someone else
in the end, my current love was sitting there
it seems to be waiting for me
i practically cradle it gently in my arms like a child
and i was grinning all the way to loan it
GOSH, IT WAS A GOOD DAY!:)
i must admit that since sec 3, i know that my every holiday must be fantabulous!:)
this year will be an unique one
instead of the original schedule to fly to overseas
i took the challenge to fly to another dimension
i love this current holiday
nothing big or special to take care of
just be myself and myself
dont need to care about any inter-personal relationship
O.M.L.I!:)
today i did two stupid things
first, i have a strong craving for ruffles
seriously, my favourite potato chips is ruffles
they are always so crispy
and they are jagged looking
and they are salty!:)
anyway, it was drizzling outside
and there is no umbrella at home
so i put on my CERN dark blue sweater and i walked to rivervale plaza just to buy a packet of my love!:)
hahaha, it was an act of impulse but i dont regret it
sometimes, we have to do things out of our normal routine
oh boy, you know how much walking in rain without a brolly
the acid in the rainwater will corrode your skin cells
secondly, i board the train from sengkang to toa payoh to borrow the fifth book of my SWORD OF TRUTH series.
there, i met an old housing agent who was using the library comp to print some notes
seriously, i dont know how to print things in public place
even in NYJC, I HAD TO ASK PEOPLE TO HELP ME!
in the end, i spent thirty minutes to help her and the thing cant be opened
hmm... NO COMMENTS
then i dashed to the third level which is the teenager section
my eyes scanned for "GOO" since the author's name is terry GOOdkind
in the end, it wasnt there!
WTS!
I WAS DISAPPOINTED
i searched for the book in the entire library
it wasnt in the library
i checked the catalogue using the library's comp and it said it was currently not on loan
i swear it was either the girls or the boy that "stole" it from me
feeling really disappointed and i swore that i will lay my hands on the book
i board the mrt and rushed to Yishun
and i almost run to the library
my heart was pounding real fast and i was praying that the last "faith of the fallen" book in singapore wont be borrowed by someone else
in the end, my current love was sitting there
it seems to be waiting for me
i practically cradle it gently in my arms like a child
and i was grinning all the way to loan it
GOSH, IT WAS A GOOD DAY!:)
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