happiness is a sin

dear diary,
happiness is a sin
if it isn't, people around me won't be trying their best to crush my little happy moments
i feel that i'm never granted the chance to feel happy
whenever i feel happy, others will try to trumple over it
like a little dandelion
i will be standing there, i want to save that fragile flower
before it is stained by the dirty and muddy footprints
but i can't do much
many times, i will just stand there and cry
tonight, i didn't
i just hold back my tears
worse, my whole family is ganging up with the rest of the baddies
to try to crush my little happiness
thank you
i graduated from zhonghua and so i lost my second home
i went to jc and jc will never be my second home
now, my home is not a home